Single Life In Baltimore

I can't begin to describe how good I feel and how fullfilled I feel since I have been dating these older women. I have made a decision not to ever date another woman under 27 ever again. I am so done with them it is not even funny. The dates I have been having with these women is amazing. They have all done so many things with their lives that it is truly inspiring and I feel honored just to be in their presence. The company these women meet is great. I have learned so much about everything in the last week or so I can not even begin to describe. The other HUGE thing I have noticed is how good these women are in bed. Younger women are so herky jerky and just have finesse and no sensitivity. They do not understand how to gently pleasure a man and they don't understand the concept of less is more.

Whenever I am with an older woman I feel like we are sharing something special. I feel like we are forming a meaningful bond and we are connected in some way. When I am with a younger girl I feel like we are just humping like wild animals. I do not feel any passion with younger women I only feel intense lust and I am not a big fan of that. Feeling that intense passion goes so much further and I am pretty sure that it releases more endorphins that the latter.

I still get messages from younger girls and now what I do is I talk to them and then I get them to tell me their flaws and then I talk to them about how they can improve those flaws and I preach to them about various stuff. A lot of them, ok most of them get really offended and tell me to go fuck myself and I find that kind of thing down right amusing. I mean I should show you guys the kinds of messages I get. These young girls just do not understand and it is not just about being young. I do not think that most of the young girls I have spoken with will ever turn out to be half the women I am talking to now.

I guess wisdom and class simply can not be taught or bought and I think that now I am naturally gravitating toward women that possess those qualities. Everyday I am scanning the online dating site for interesting older women. I message a lot of them and I get a lot of messages back from them because I do not send them something gay. I always send a long well thought out message that is relevant to their lives and most of them reply with intrigue. I love it and I will never go back!

Older women are such a breath of fresh air. I have met several women that are at least 28 and older, in fact one of them is 32 and I feel like finally I am communicating effectively and on the same level as a female. It is really hard to describe how I feel but the best way I could put it is that girls that are under 27 are very childish and infantile in their behavior. They lack the depth and maturity that I am looking for in a woman and ultimately in a life partner.

This new girl I met named Erin is amazing. I had her over to my place the other night and she gave me a massage from head to toe while we just played music. I forgot how doing something so simple can feel so good vs going out to a club and these other shenanigans these young kids get themselves into now days. I just feel so far separated from all of that infantile behavior. I imagine it is not just Baltimore that his it's fair share of these types of youths. Reckless abandonment, selfishness, excessive behaviour and all the sort. It just makes me sick sometimes to see young people behaving in such a manner. It does not bode well on them at all in the long run in my opinion and my opinion is usually right.

The other day a classmate described me as an arrogant douche bag and I felt really quite personally attacked and I do not understand what this fellow is thinking in that he feels he has the right or better to say that he feels compelled to take it upon himself to express his distaste for my personality when he himself is another flawed human being that is not in a position to be judging other people.

Anyways enough ranting, bottom line is that there seems to be a lot of mature women from 27-35 online who are really down to earth and just seem cool and normal. It is like they are hot and look great, but they have already gone through all this reckless crazy phase and now they are just normal good girls - who happen to still be horny sluts in bed. The sex that I am having now is better than anything I have ever had with a young girl. Older women is where its at and they are everywhere online.

Well it is 2010 and this is my first blog entry so far this year. Things didn't work out with that gamer chick - she ended up standing me up. I think she was talking to a lot of different guys online and well I'm not really sure what happened to be honest with you.

I am exciting though about my future. When I say my future, I mean my future with women, not my future as a doctor. Lately I have been questioning my decision to become a doctor in the first place. My dad and mom and both doctors and my grandfather was a doctor so I guess he is the one that started it all. I couldn't really think of anything else to do and since my parents paid for all my education I just went with the flow and now here I am almost about to graduate and become a doctor and have to deal with icky stuff like blood and needles etc. I am just kidding about that last part. There is a crazy doctor on my favorite tv show called 30 rock and he is all scared of needles and gross stuff lol. I have always had a strong mind and a strong stomach and I can handle messed up stuff like blood and guts no problem and cutting into people with scalpels and shit.

The economy has been so crappy lately I wonder if I am going to be another graduate working at mcdonalds with a medical degree. I can't say that I am very happy about graduating and having to go work in the real world. I guess I might be able to ride the coattails of my mom and dad and they might be able to hook me up with a job or at least put in a good word for me.

When I talk to girls online through the dating site I joined they all seem to be impressed with the pre med thing and think ooo maybe I can hook up with a future doctor now. They don't understand how much time and effort goes into training to become a doctor. I really think I would be better suited to hook up with a girl who is older than me because they will probably be more mature than most girls and I think that I am more mature than most guys and I think I need to find a girl who is in her late twenties or maybe early thirties who already has stable employment etc and isn't out every weekend clubbing and doing jelly shots off some dudes stomach.

I think I am jaded and yet I am only 24. My parents aren't really happy in their relationship and my sister has a serious drug problem but I don't even want to get into that right now. I will save that for another day, another post. Back to being jaded. I am just not an optimist, I am a pessimist and I don't have much faith in humankind. Perhaps it is because I am slightly antisocial having spent so much time with med school etc. I certainly don't feel like an average 24 year old. I feel like I am 30 and already done with the partying phase and I just want to settle into a nice job.

When I first starting writing this blog I thought that I just wanted to meet some chicks and get laid. I was wrong, I was just trying to act cool and I was in denial of how I really feel which is that I want to find someone conservative, marry them and and have kids with them.

From now on I am only going to messaging girls that are older than me and also that have secure jobs and look conservative. No more floozies.